Got no time for feeling sorry.

I experience emotions of hatred toward a number of things -- Nickelback, Full House, bananas, washing dishes, losing things -- but I gotta tell you, something I truly hate is those moments I have when I feel sorry for myself. When I think that the whole world is going to end if I don't get [insert what I want] or when I think that I have too many things to worry about or too many things to do or too many people to please. When I get overwhelmed and when I get worrisome and when I feel like nothing could possibly get worse for me, that's when the self-pity sets in. That's when I want everyone around me to help me feel better and make all the bad things go away. That's when I want sympathy. That's when I want someone to say "Gosh Kaitlyn, you're really going through something tough." But what good does that do? What good does any of that do?

I am so sick of being so completely and utterly selfish that I lose sight of what's really importang. I am so sick of forgetting that I'm one of 6 billion people on this planet and what I'm going through can't compare to what some people have to live through every day. And I know that I can only take care of myself and I should be focusing on how I can better myself as a person and focus on what I need to do from day to day, but I hate it. I hate how selfish I feel all the time. And I hate that being selfish leads to feeling sorry for myself.

But what can I do? How can I break the cycle? Well, I can pray about it. And pray not just for myself but for the other people in my life, other people that experience just as many difficult moments as I do. And I can strive for ways to be less selfish. I can pray for oppurtunities to focus on someone else instead of me. And I can pray for humility and patience and selflessness. And with 6 billion other people on the planet, I really don't have time to feel sorry for myself.